So all those cryptic/ not-so-cryptic posts previously, were not a reflection actually of what I ‘normally’ am.
I have been told that I am actually sick.
Like goodness-to-honest sick.
And I am going have Valium-induced sleep for a while. Nice considering I just had one and it felt soooo good. It was utterly dreamless comfortable unconsciousness.
But in the meantime, it is nice to have friends who think of you.
Friend A: You mean you are on Valium now?!?! Didn’t Heath Ledger die from an accidental overdoes of that drug amonst other things?
In a separate instance altogether:
Doctor Friend: If your doctor prescribed you Valium, then he just thinks you’re psychotic.
Well, it is just nice knowing that I have friends who care. 
Valium should be used carefully. But if it helps calm your nerves and lets you sleep, that’s always a good thing. Just don’t go beyond the prescribed dosage! But seriously, you ok?
Having unexplained heart palpitations and thyroid troubles have been ruled out. Yeah, but it has been really bad. I get it for no rhyme or reason and I have been having insomnia for several days. I have been on the edge, anxious, paranoid, etc.